9 September 2011: I have patient. I kept quiet because i want to cool myself down. Easy for me to cool down, and pretend nothing had happened. Not easy for someone else to behave like this. I still can control myself.
My friend keep saying i'm stupid, but no. I know what i'm doing. But now, you are about to disappear for a while. I am sorry if i did wrong to you. You shouldn't felt guilty, because it is not your fault.
Sometimes i just want to protect you from someone that may want to destroy your life.
I am protective to the one i loved. That is my nature.