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Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Internet crush and a long distance relationship

Finally finished editing the videos. This is our videos, our love story. Van and Patchy forever ever after.



Wednesday, June 20, 2012

I met her in June 13th

June 20th 2012, i am back in Malaysia. I cried so much this month and always think about her. I spent seven days from June 13th to 19th in Bangkok to meet my GF and we had a blast. I love her, and now i miss her so badly. 

Friday, June 8, 2012

We will meet soon

June 8, 2012. Five days to go, we will meet soon. My heart beats fast as hell, if you ask me do i feel nervous? Yes of course and also excited! So 13th of June would be the sacred date for us, because we will meet for the very first time. (Almost a week to spend with her there! Yeeehaa!)

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Time is running fast

April 26, 2012. Time is running so fast these days. The main focus is on June 2012, the day that i will be going to Bangkok and meet her. I am preparing my self here to get ready for this. Hopefully i will be fully ready on June. I have planned everything, and everything must flow on the right track. I will go there on 13th to 19th June 2012. This year is the starting point. 


Saturday, April 21, 2012

I am Mr. Dare Devil

April 21, 2012. I planned to end this life. But i failed again. Well actually, when Patchy told me she wanted me back, i changed my plan from a suicide plan to a dare-devil plan. I fell from my motorcycle and got wounds. 



Monday, March 26, 2012

Don't hurt me, i just love you

March 26, 2012: Last night me and patchy had a big fight. You know i hate fighting. If you want me to end this relationship i will say No because i know you didn't mean it. Your Soul said no, so it just You without the soul. You were not the real Patchy. You speaked like you don't even know me. So my blood ran cold through my veins as i was affraid something bad will happen to us. (This is more terrified and horrified than words can tell)


P/s: i drew the cartoon yesterday at work. That is patchy cartoon version with her new hair.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

The table lamp and her illness

March 17, 2012. Yesterday was 16th March, her mom went to the post office to take the parcel. Yes the table lamp i bought! So now she can read books in the dark or at night, thanks to the lamp. 


Monday, March 5, 2012

The accident

March 5, 2012. Our anniversarry, and she broke my heart so badly, again. I was so depressed and could not work. My boss asked me, "are you okay?". I said "yes" but actually i was not and started to think too much. What made her change her mind? All the lies are painfull. Because i really believe her and she always make me think about her all the time. I have to admit that i work in the factory because of her. Factory is not my style but yeah why not work there for the money. (factory, this is a bit out of topic sorry)

The wounds

Saturday, March 3, 2012

The table lamp

March 1, 2012: i went to the shop to buy the table lamp in the morning after seing her heart last night. She wanted to have a laptop. I cannot buy laptop now, but i can buy table lamp for her. She needs the table lamp since she is a reader. She always said to me she want the table lamp. So i think it is a good idea to make a surprise and yeah i bought the table lamp. 

A dream that came to life

Days ago i dreamed about her. If only i can remember the date, but it happened like two or three days ago in the morning. The first dream, i was at the canteen and she (Patchy) met me for the first time in Malaysia. I was there sitting and she came and sat with me. There were a group of men like five of them. One of them sat close to her and touched her shoulder and down to her breast. I was sad, pissed, and mad. I said something like "don't touch her!" in the dream. The rest of the men just laughed. I felt like i want to punch and beat the man down but i choose not too because violence is not my style. I grabbed her hand and walked away and sat far from the men but their voices can be heard so it was not that far.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

She talked (via Skype)

Febuary 28, 2012: She talked and we talked random stuff starting from Febuary 26, 2012 and now. Finally "she broke the ice." I had a good time talking with her although sometimes my english sucks when i talk with my tired and sleepy head. The most cute part is when she didn't wear her make-up and it revealed her natural face.


I hope "nothing but the feeling" is enough to tell that you love me but still, i don't really think it means something to me. Just the feeling. The feeling can come and go easily. Hmm....

Friday, February 17, 2012

I dreamed about you

Febuary 17, 2012. Today in the morning, I dreamed, Patchy are about to take a taxi to go to the concert. I was there and i got in the taxi at the back seat with her. She looked moody and she wore a shirt, shorts and tights. 

I said to her, "why are you wearing tights to the concert? You should wear proper clothes, because anything can happen in that wild and crowded place". She did not say anything. She were quiet and looked away. I asked her again, "why tights?" My left hand touched her left lap and i asked her again. "Why tights? You said you will wear legging." She did not answer and looked at the window. I pinched her lap and asked her the same question. She did not say a word. 

I was there staring at her and my hand was on her lap as the taxi on its way to the concert.

After i woke up, it feels so real. Because for the first time, i can see her face and her body clearly. 
She is Patchy. :"(




Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Destiny, she said (Patchy)

"Destiny is just a thing that can twist anytime but we are the ones who hold it with our hands, why should keep bothering each other? Get off from the computer and meet once in a lifetime, we will prove them wrong."

- Patchy

Patchy smiles

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Birthday and valentine's present

Febuary 13, 2012. I received the box in the afternoon. Patchy gave me the present, i was like... is this real? Haha. Because i have never received birthday and valentine's presents. So thank you so much baby!

Inside the box!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Crowded at the post office

Febuary 8, I am home and the present was posted. The post office was crowded as hell, and bad luck again when i was about to pay for the register post delivery, my money was not enough. I got only Rm10 in my wallet and the cost for the delivery is Rm20. So i went to the bank and came back again to pay the money. So, today's task is done.

Why i always face the obstacles when it comes to you?


Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Presents

7/2/2012, Ouchh... I supposed to send her present today but i did not because the post office is closed due to public holiday! I was pissed when i was at the post office. SHIT!


Saturday, February 4, 2012

The truth about Patchy

"Oh look, our love life is now spread out. Most of the people I know knows my story from Van. All of the things he have told you is correct. I am a Thai girl who once attempted to die on my-one-year-ago birthday but I failed. I am a Thai girl who also attempted to commit suicide by drinking poison and medicines. I am a Thai girl who surprisingly in love with a Malay who I have never met before. I am a Thai girl who always have arguments with the Malay because I am sometimes fucked up with my own brain since I think I have the split personality. I am also the most dramatic person he has ever seen but these elements create me. I am old enough to take any responsibility which might comes towards me in the future. If things do not work out with Van, I need to take responsibility for this. I will not leave him since I know he loves me so much. I will take the responsibility for leading him here in Thailand, for building his hopes and dreams, and for being his girlfriend who he has never met. I will never break my promises to him. If I break them, I hope hell will burn me alive." From Patchy.

What had happened to me and to Patchy is real and unbelievable. Our love story is way unbelievable to tell, but i guess you guys just have to believe it because i do not lie.

Meanwhile i just created Tumblr. This is my tumblr, http://vandeanvar.tumblr.com/ and this is Patchy's Tumblr, http://tothemetalsickness.tumblr.com/   


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Monday, January 30, 2012

Yesterday sadness

Yesterday January 29, my bad mood struck me. I was sad after all what had happened yesterday. I made a video dedicated to Patchy, but i cannot show it here. So you guys must add my facebook first.
www.facebook.com/vandeanvar


Wednesday, January 25, 2012

The Passport

25 January 2012. Sorry for being late again. Well, i think many of my followers already know this. I finally have a passport! I am kinda lazy to write right now, but i have a video to show you guys. So enjoy it.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

My Birthday 2012

My birthday is here. Thank you guys for the wishes, i really appreaciate it. Thanks. Thank you too to my mom who bought me the cake. I did not get any present from anyone. I do not mind that. Anyway happy birthday to me. 

mom bought the cake

Monday, January 2, 2012

A cashier gave me a Thai coin


Is this another coincidence? Days ago i received this Thai coin from a canteen cashier, the cashier did not know this is a Thai coin. But i took the coin anyway and kept it in my wallet. Talks about coincidence, we (me and Patchy) have so many coincidences!

Okay but i cannot remember all of them sorry. But i can tell you, when my toes were hurt, weeks later she felt the same. She had puss in her toe. :O weird ha?

And also when her monitor screen is damaged, my cellphone screen is damaged too. She bought a new LED monitor, and i bought a new cellphone (blackberry). 

Life is full of mystery. 

2012 : A Starting Point


Yes. A starting point for me. I have no idea what it is going to be like, but i know i will change. I know something will happen to me in this year. 

Also, my life directions has started. So i have to be ready for this. For a girl that i have been dreaming. I must meet her. I have been waiting for this. 


When i stalked her in 2009, i thought that i will never had a chance to meet her. I am lucky to know her. I love her more than i love myself. Me would be nothing without her. 


If i have to choose between angel and Patchy, i will choose Patchy.